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Well it’s all a bit mad at the moment, isn’t it? If I’m honest I totally forgot about this whole blog business very quickly and only just thought of it because someone started following it, so thank you to you! But I thought what better time to start writing on here again than in the midst of all this rubbish?

So we are 16 days in, with self isolation, and I am so ready for everything to go back to normal! It’s getting very frustrating only being allowed out for a bit of exercise once a day and for food if needed. Normally I would love any excuse to stay in and do sweet F.A. all week but when the choice is taken away from you, it doesn’t seem so great, you know? 😆

I’m trying to remain positive and look forward to things that we can do with family when this is all over. I’m also going to set myself a little ‘To do’ list every day now so that I have things to achieve and tick off. I’ve done a couple of exercise videos which were fun but I need to keep to it and keep eating well like I was prior to ‘lockdown’.

I’ve always found it very easy to fall off the diet wagon. I’m one of those “oh, I’ve eaten one bad thing…my diet is ruined now so I may as well eat the entire contents of the fridge and cupboards” so you can imagine how much I’m struggling with nothing to occupy me! So, tomorrow I am going to get all my ducks in a row, get some work done and do some exercise in the garden to make me feel a bit better about this whole thing that’s going on in the world at the moment.

Lastly, I hope that anyone who sees this who hasn’t been taking self isolation seriously, please take a moment to think of others. It’s a hard time for everyone at the moment, but we are all in the same boat. Christ, it winds me up when I see this silly old woman in my street going up and down when she’s supposed to be in her house when I’m stuck inside for the benefit for people her age, and then the people on the news are blaming ‘stupid and ignorant young people’ who seem to be ignoring government advice but I’m trying not to think about what other people are doing anymore as I can’t change their actions. I ask you all to stay home until this is all gone away. The sooner everyone starts listening then the sooner this horrid virus will disappear. Keep safe everyone.

Bye for now, H.

Hey. So this is going to be a bit of boring one and it’s more of ‘note to self kinda thing’. I’m feeling a bit shitty about myself and life in general today- just one of those days that occurs far too often- but I’m determined to try and turn that frown upside down!

So I want to try and make a plan for myself so that I feel like I have a goal and points that I can check off as I go.

First- I want to deep clean the house top to bottom tomorrow and I mean DEEP. I’m going to throw out all the crap that I have a bad habit of hoarding (anyone else? No? Just me then), scrub and bleach every nook and cranny as I know this will make me feel instantly better and it’s something I just keep putting off and making excuses for.

Secondly- I want to get on a serious diet and exercise regime and make sure that I stick to it so I’m going to write down and plan my meals for the next few days to get me started.

Thirdly- I need to get into the habit of keeping the house tidy once it is tidy as I am constantly battling with myself and think why did I let it get into a shit tip for the millionth time!! So need to try and make that into a habit too.

Lastly- I want to try and be more organised and positive. So I’m going to organise my PGCE files on my laptop ready for September and make sure that I’ve got all my lessons ready as well!

I know I can do it, and yet somehow I always let myself down by putting things off until the last minute. I don’t know why I do it to myself! The stress of it all is ridiculous and when you’re already an anxious person it’s not a good mix. So onwards and upwards, and here’s to being organised!

H.

So, as per the title of this post, today has felt a little like Groundhog Day. Seems like I’ve told Owen not to pick the coals off the fire place, not to empty his ball pit out after I’ve just finished putting it away for the 100th time, not to slap or kick because he’s not getting his own way and to stop just generally moaning, on a continuous loop all day. I think it’s partly to do with teething and partly to do with the fact this kid was sent to test me, ha ha! Oh, and the fact he’s only had a very short lived nap today so is a moody monster. But, and it’s a big but, only when he falls asleep on me do I feel like I’ve finally got through another day and really it went quite quick, as is his whole ‘toddlerhood’. So I’m taking a quiet few minutes to write this and think about how quick his two years on this earth has gone and it seems almost impossible. I’m so thankful that he’s mine and that majority of the time he’s a happy little soul, and in the grand scheme of things, it’s so lovely to be able to be here to watch him grow and develop into a beautiful little human. I have no doubt that one day he will be 6’5 and tower over me and his Dad, but he will still be my baby to me. I know that when he is 15 and spending his teenage days sat in his room on his PlayStation and chatting to his friends on whatever social media platforms are the new thing, that he’s still my baby and will be forever. I will make sure he knows that no matter what he is struggling with, there is no situation that can’t be solved with a cup of coffee and a biscuit with his Mam or Dad and that we understand him. So, although today has been a little like Groundhog Day, I will cherish these short tiny human years whilst they last. H.